It's Been Awhile!

I made black bean brownies last night and they are so good!

Recipe:

Ingredients: 1 box brownie mix
1 can black beans

Directions: 1. Drain beans and rinse.
2. Pour beans into blender, add 1 can of water. Puree
3. Pour pureed beans into brownie mix in bowl. Mix
4. Pour batter into pan. Bake as directed on box.

Easy and delicious! The beans make them taste fudgy. My family even liked them and they don't usually go for "healthier" things.

I'm at a total loss of 18 pounds. I was at 19, but gained. School starts in just a few weeks! Hopefully being back on a schedule will improve my eating habits. I've been off work a lot this summer (especially the past few weeks), so I've been snacking a lot.

I've had a lot of day trips and a Mackinac trip coming up next week! Can't wait!

Eat Pray Love Quote

“I’m so tired of saying no and then waking up in the morning and recalling every single thing I ate the day before, counting every calorie I consume so I know exactly how much self loathing to take into the shower. I’m going for it. I have no interest in being obese, I’m just through with the guilt..”

OUT OF CONTROL

This has been by far the worst week of the 20ish weeks I've been losing weight. The worst. I have been on a week long binge. I was okay until Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday. I'm ready to weigh in, face my gain, and start again. I think I ate an entire jar of Nutella over this week, lots of ice cream, bread pudding, a huge sub, and lots of bread that my dad homemade. I'm ready to start over and I need to get it together!!

I'm just going to go ahead and blame it on PMS. While I usually eat more during that week, I think my hormones went crazy or something! I've made it through 4 other PMS's and have never done this terrible.

Discouraged. I'm picking up the pieces and trekking on.

Grocery Shopping

Went grocey shopping today. Yes, I look in other people's carts. I try not to judge, but filling your entire cart with Totino's Pizzas just seems ridiculous.

Swimsuit!

Lost 1.5 today for a total of -19! Yesterday I bought myself a new swimsuit. Nothing that shows my stomach, but super-cute and I'm totally in love with it. Hoping to hit the -20# mark next week!